There is no other words to describe our lives right now other than BUSY! We have been going nonstop lately! Our schedule is crammed and on top of that we decided to put our house on the market! What were we thinking!?! We moved on a prompting from the Lord and we aren't looking back. Our prayers are ongoing that the right person will be led to our house that we have called home for the last six years. We love our little home, but that is just what it is...little. We are crowded beyond belief and I am hoping with a bigger home maybe a little bit of my stress and anxiety will fade away. I don't know how they did it in the old days in a tiny house with lots of kids, but apparently I am not cut out for it...well, no, I guess that's not true. If I needed to stay where I am, I could, but I think more space would definitely be nice. We have found a home nearby that we love, but we are waiting to see if we get any nibbles on our home before plunging in too deep. We pray that Heavenly Father will provide for us a means to have that home, or the one He would have us live in. It is really hard sometimes to hand everything over to Him, but I just keep telling myself it is what we need to do.
Well, home school life is still a bit of a task. I actually find myself murmuring a bit that if both my boys were in school I could get a lot more done, but I know that the right place for Alex is at home right now. There have been many moments recently where that has been made very clear to me. I am trying to keep him as social as I can, but it is hard to do when I see how much he struggles with it and with his self esteem. There was an instance this week in his Lego Robotics class that still has me a bit torn up inside. Maybe one of my readers can give me some insight or just some kind words for this Mommy's broken heart. While Alex was in class on Tuesday, Eric and I were playing in the museum. I glanced through the window (they can't see me, but I can see them) and Alex was bawling his eyes out and obviously very upset. I resisted all urge to step in and find out what was going on, but instead I just watched. I walked away for a few minutes, and then came back to see him still recovering from crying (little hiccups and heaves). Okay, apparently it didn't last too long, but I still couldn't figure out what the problem was. Anyway, fast forward to an hour later in the car on the way home. I asked Alex how class was and he told me it was good and that he made a car with his classmates. I asked him if he had any problems and he said a little one. He then related to me this..."We were all building parts of the car and then someone took the pieces I built out of my hand. I got mad and told the teacher. She then asked me if I knew how to share. I said yes and then she said well, don't you know how to make friends? I then started crying and told her no, I don't know how to make friends." I then asked Alex what she said to that and he said that she ignored him. This whole thing bugs me! One, I can't figure out what more I can do to help Alex get to know people. We role play, we play at the park, play dates art class, Lego class, piano lessons, church...what else can I do? Also, it really really really bothers me how the teacher reacted to him. Even if this isn't exactly how it happened, Alex perceived it this way and I don't like it! I pay for these classes and they are in a learning environment that is supposed to nurture children's curiosity and learning, yet I feel as if she isn't treating my son as a student and rather an annoyance. The class has a whopping 5 kids in it! I am frustrated beyond belief and this is a total Mommy Bear thing protecting my babies!
On another note, Alex absolutely LOVES piano and art class. He gets so excited for Wednesdays. He has been doing very well with practicing the piano. Alex has also been better at letting his (for lack of a better term) creative juices to flow. It is hard when you want things to be perfect all of the time, and he has a new art teacher that is definitely a bit unique herself and Alex adores her. I am very tempted to enroll him in the second session of art, but at the same time I feel that it would be much easier on me if we took a break after this class ends so that maybe we can get this whole real estate stuff under control and not be quite so overwhelmed.
Oh, and I got a new calling that I am excited for, but nervous for at the same time. I am grateful to still be in Primary. I mean let's face it, I seriously lack the attention span for Relief Society and I never did fit in when I was in Young Women, so why would now be any different. So, right now I am still working as the Primary chorister until after the Primary Program in a few weeks. I am also still called to the Relief Society Activities Committee and now I am Primary first counselor Sometimes I wish the Lord didn't trust me so much! Even though I am totally stressed, losing my hair and my mind, and absolutely exhausted, I feel so overwhelmingly blessed. I know the Lord's hand is in my day-to-day because if it wasn't I would have probably exploded all over the place by now. Life is calling, and I must go. Hopefully I will have a few minutes this weekend to write again and let you know how the house stuff went. Please keep our home situation in your prayers, and maybe my sanity too.
